Whilst in my last hospital stay for pain management a few weeks ago, I was given the very bad news that chemo is not working for me and that the likely future success of any other chemo (even in simply extending life for weeks/months) is extremely low. Therefore they do not recommend continuing treatment, they simply want to try to help me be confortable for the remainder of my expected life - a few months.
This very difficult news to deal with, combined with the ongoing efforts of pain and general health management mean that I am unlikely to be blogging again. Thank you to everyone for the messages of support that I have been receiving via email, facebook, etc! The messages are greatly appreciated and it is very touching to know the support that is out there for me. However, I have been a little overwhelmed and typing is not a strong point at the moment, so I apologise in advance if I do not reply! As I say, I do appreciate the messages sent and have been reading them all.
I have to sign off by saying that this was not the way I expected this blog to end when I started it up almost a year ago. If breast cancer wasn't in my five year plan, then dying from it certainly wasn't! I firmly expected to "beat" the cancer, at least for a good period, but obviously this wasn't meant to be. All I can do now is try to enjoy the rest of my time here, especially with my lovely husband, and my parents and sister who I am very pleased have flown over to spend this time with me.
Kirsty
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